Update

Here I am, not stranded but I'm here willingly.
With a hope, I could make a change, or the very least, aid it.
Probably too ambitious but heck, I thought that I could help my sister.

What's the outcome of these decisions? I asked myself.
I don't know really.  

I want to be optimistic about the current affair of my life but as gloomy as the autumn sky it seems, I would give it another try.

For at least, I give it a try.
In this case, I’ve given plenty of them.