Today's reflection.

I've had things that I know some would die (exaggerating) if not would love to have it.
Great job, with great pay.
0 commitment.
Financially or relationship-wise.
I'm a free woman.
Free as in, I can do almost anything that I wanted to.
Over the past two years (almost) I've been trying to figure out what I actually wanted to do.
I've taken a certification.
Took up assignments that I'm able to do work from home.
Did my home-based/home cook meal thing.
I could say that my life has transformed from the formal working attire to the most laid-back I can dress up however I wanted to.
I wasn't happy with the 9-5 thing, but it was super lonely on the WFH assignments.

Meet Me There

We don’t have to agree on everything.

We can agree to disagree and I hope you will meet me halfway.

.

Truth is, it's no longer about what you said and promised.
But what you did, instead.
My heart is heavy for the fear of losing us once again.

A little note for my soul sisters.

Until our next hug, think of me a little

Beautiful Thing

She wrote the song for her best friend.
This is my favourite song.
I dedicate this to you.

We're a beautiful thing together
Even when the weather is low
We find the rainbow
Up in the sky
You'd say don't you cry, it's all gonna be alright

Quick One

My Mama used to say "a short phone call during your lunch break will do".

May you find the time in your busy schedule to call your mother or your father. You don't have to have a fancy conversation a simple "how are you" or "have you eaten" will do.

I won't be able to call her anymore.
For now; dear god, love and forgive her.
As gloomy as the winter sky, I'll keep wandering until it's time to go home. I'll see you soon Ma.

Would you?

Would you help someone who won't be able to help you in return?

Home

Definitely not a place.

Lost my home many years ago.
Since then I've been wandering.
Lost.
I belonged nowhere.

Year

Let’s not count by the years of my life (cuz I stop counting at 17) but rather by the life in my years.

Thank you; not just for the birthday wishes and du’a but also for keeping up with me, for having me around, for each and every kindness that you’ve shown no matter how small it may seem. They means the world to me.
I’m forever grateful for the whole lot of you. You know who you are, the family that I choose to keep.
Dalam setiap musim tuhan itu selalu penyayang, here’s to another adventure.

♥️
Amy H.

Air

Just breathe.
Will you?

This is just too exhausting.
When will it stop for I don’t have much energy left?

Gray

Words are are of course the most powerful drug used by human kind

~Rudyard Kipling

I knew this very day would come.

Just like every arrival there’d be a departure.

The same word that got me addicted and now sending me straight to rehab.

Try again

Know this: you can start over, each morning.

Goodnight.
xx

1 Degree

Bring it on.

>.<

Prayers

If you miss someone so badly and there's nothing you can do within your power.

Say a little prayer for them.

Clean up

Maybe if we look closer to what people said over what they did, we know who to keep and who to get rid.

PDN

Maaf Cik, hemoglobin Cik rendah

Crap.
Tak boleh derma darah.

Normal

Now you look like the Amy that I know.

Mental Note:
Never again pixie cut, never again.

Self Love

Hi Baby,
I love you.

She told herself that.

Breakfast Date

For a moment, that hug brought me back to a familiar space, a safe one.
I wish I could stay longer.

Normal

I'm so happy to see you.
Makes me feel normal again.

and they hugged.

If only I could tell you how I felt when I heard that.